Friday, October 19, 2012

22/30 Things: The Next 5-15 Years

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22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?

...I have a feeling this one is gonna be a tough one...

In 5 years, that'll make A 9 years old and V nearly 6.  I hope to have one if not two more kiddos (around 3 and newborn) running around the house.  That would mean I'd still (happily) be a homemaker with babes underfoot and Bryan will (hopefully) still be doing all that he loves with computer programming.
I'll be 33 and Bryan will be 35 but nothing should be too different from now, expect hopefully more wisdom with that age!
Hopefully we'll have a little bit bigger of a house, but I have no idea where we'll be living!  I don't even know where we'll be living in the next year.

10 years, that'll make A 14 years old (I won't cry!), V almost 11(*sniff sniff*),  and (maybe) baby #3 around 8 and (maybe) baby #4 around 3 {these are just guesses people!! Don't get all excited here!! ;) }  I'll still be a homemaker if there's a baby #4 which will be just grand by me!
I'll be 38 by then and Bryan will be 40!!!  Wowza.  And I'm hoping by this point I will have a photography career by then.  Hopefully!  There are so many fabulous photographers out there I don't know if I can even begin to compete.  But we'll see.

15 years, that'll make A 19 years old (not gonna cry!!), V almost 16 (ack!!), (maybe) baby #3 around 13, and (maybe) baby #4 around 8.  That all means that A will have graduated and will now be at college, V will be driving, baby 3 starting the teenage years, and baby 4 will no longer be a baby.  Ack!
Plus this all means that I'll be old.  Haha! I'll will now be 43 and Bryan will be 45.  He'll be awesome at his computeringness and I'll be well established in a photography career.
Our kids will all be awesome, we'll probably be living closer to my family by now but in a lovely not too big not too small house, and the Forbitts will have been friends for 20 years!!!  Huzzah!

Thursday, October 18, 2012

21/30 Things: Superpowers

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21.  If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?

If I could have any superpower it would totally be telekinesis.  There's always a moment when I just lay down for bed and forgot to shut off a light, or sat down for supper but forgot to grab the water pitcher.  It would just be nice to be able to make something come to me without me having to get back up to get it.  The only problem there would be laziness!  Because I wouldn't want that to happen.  I don't want to use it to be lazy, just for those times when I was just there to do it but forgot because of my mommy brain.  Gotta love the mommy brain.

Wednesday, October 03, 2012

20/30 Things: Childhood Memories

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20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.

I wanted to write a book when I was 8
So I had an idea for a book .  I wanted to write about how adults don't think we understand things at certain ages but that we totally did.  I felt like they didn't realize that we understood things even though we did.  I probably would've made mega bucks.

The Christmas when I found out Santa wasn't real
I think I was 5 at the time but I came down the stairs after bed for whatever reason, I'm not sure, and saw my dad writing on a tag and then placing it on a present so I snuck back upstairs.  The next morning when we opened presents I saw that the same present my dad was writing on the night before read, "To September From Santa".  But it was a Strawberry Shortcake doll that turned into a cupcake when you flipped her dress up and put her cupcake top hat on her head.  It was way cool.  And it smelled like strawberries.

My Baptism
I got baptized in '95.  I believe it was June that I made the decision at camp.  10 years old and I wasn't paying attention (imagine that) and during worship I saw a bunch of people go up on stage.  A couple of them were my friends and they were crying so I went up to hug them.  
Turned out it was a time to make a decision for Christ and to get baptized.  The guy I got to talk to actually went to college with my parents so he knew who I was immediately.  We talked and I decided I really did want to get baptized, but not at camp.
I went home and on a Sunday after church, my whole family (grandparents, uncles, aunt, mom, and sisters) got to watch as my Uncle Jon baptized me.  And the coolest thing, when I went under the water I saw a light.  I thought maybe it was a light bulb above me but nope!, I believe it was a God moment.
I'm thankful that's when I decided to do it because just a month and some later my other uncle was killed in a car accident.  I'm glad he got to be there for that.  It meant still means a lot to me.

Tuesday, October 02, 2012

19/30 Things: Where I want to live

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19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?

Uh.. Right where I am!! Ha! But that's because all of my family is within the state or right next to it so they're close which means frequent visits and lots of family time. Plus it's beautiful, and I grew up here, and I love it, blah, blah, blah.
But... if I didn't have to worry about traveling to see family (i.e. could take my family with me or had my own private plane and didn't have to worry about gas or money!) I think I would want to live in Scotland.  Or maybe Ireland.  They both have people with really awesome accents, the places are gorgeous, and the history is very cool.  Uh.. can you say CASTLES!??  Not to say that America isn't cool, cause it totally is, but castles, guys.  Castles.  

Monday, October 01, 2012

18/30 Things: Forgivness

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18.  What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?

Wow.  Yes.  I've put this one off.  It's a hard one for me.  A daily thing.  But here I go.  I'll just jump into it.  The most difficult thing for me to forgive is my dad and all he's done.. or hasn't done. 

It's been 8 years since I've talked to him.  Since then he's disowned both my sisters and me.  But I don't want to go into all the details.  There's just too much.  So very much.  
But the basics.  The basics are that my dad left my mom and us girls when I was just 6.  He never really made the time for us.  He was in the military while we were very young but that's no excuse.  We only ever heard from him once every other month while his parents heard from him every week.  He was suppose to have us every other holiday and a month out of the summer but we only saw him for a week out of the summer.  

There's just so much that I can't.  What I've mentioned was only the beginning.  There's so much more but it's just too hard, too much to put on paper.  Plus it's so personal.  Not that I don't mind talking about it, but I only talk about the pieces that come up in conversation that are relavent to the topic.  Or parts that I discuss with my mom.  
But I do want to say that my mom, my mom is great.  She's always taught us to love him and forgive him.  I think that's why we held on for so long.  Kept trying and having to move past the hurts that kept coming.  I think without her we be so much more bitter, resentful, hardened.  A part of me still is, but so much less than it could be.  
Every day, I choose to forgive.  I have to.  If I didn't it would eat me alive.  Consume me.  Every day I'm thankful that my two beautiful girls know their daddy, that he's here, that he loves and dotes on them.  Every day I thank my God that he has brought us through in love even though there's pain, instead of residing in anger and hate.
It's still hard.  I still miss what I've never known.  I'm still sad that he missed out on me, that I missed out on a having a daddy.
But God is good.  Because where I am weak, He is strong.  And I'm thankful for that.

2 Corinthians 12:9 
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. "Therefore i will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.