4/30 Things: to my 16 year old self

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4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year old self, if you could.


1. Don't be such a Drama Queen.
You will need to learn to chill out and go with the flow of things. Things aren't going to always go your way and that's okay. The world does not revolve around you.

2. Choose the friend over the boy.
I'd like to tell you to do this, and you really ought to but it will change you for the better. Teach you things like how not to put everything into a boy that God did not call for you to be with, how to value precious friendships that don't come around very often, and how you can't trust everyone but those you can you should.

3. Be good to your sisters.
Start now! Courtney will become one of your very best friends. And you and Sarah need to start the healing process now and not later in life. Gramma H told me once that one day your sisters will be all you have. We'll be gone, your momma and Kim and Jon will be gone and they'll be it. They'll be your family and all you have left to depend on from the family that you came from. So cherish them.

4. Love everyone for who they and be everyone's friend.
No attitudes toward anyone. Don't think that you are better than anyone. You're not. Although precious and valued you are not better than anyone, nor are they than you. Love on people because you don't know where they came from. Be everyone's friend because you don't know if you're all they've got at the moment. Love.

5. Stop dating and wait for God to bring him to you.
I wish I could teach you about what I learned about dating when I was 18 and in college. Going out on dates is fine. Meet people, mingle, learn what you like and don't like about guys, but no courting, that's what it's really called, until you are ready to be married.
And, btw, once you know, you really do know. I know you don't get this yet, but you will. And he's really wonderful.

6. Become a runner now.
You'll dream about it later on in life. As well as have hypo-thyroid. Start now because it would be so much easier for me now. :D

7. Make eating healthy an effortless choice now.
Same goes for this one as #6. The hypo-thyroid kicks in a your metabalism shuts off. You'll like eating healthy anyway so just do it.

8. Stay away from scary M.
No really. Stay away. It would just be better if you did.

9. Don't place your worth in others.
Know that you are deeply loved by a God who cherishes you, made you just the way he wanted you to be, and cares for you greatly. You do not need to be approved by anyone else bu you do need to be the best you.

10. Learn to be more gracious, more loving, more forgiving and quickly.
No one is perfect, everyone makes mistakes, everyone needs to be loved, and to know that you don't hold anything against them. Practice this. Because one day you'll be thankful that others practiced this on you.

3/30 Things: Parents

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3. Describe your relationship with your parents.

Momma
We'll start with my mom because that's much easier. Since it was just her to raise us we all had a unique relationship with her. She was/is always a good mom but she also became our friend. The mom card did always trump the friend card but we never held it against her because we knew she had to do what she had to do.
She's a wonderful mom. I still go to her for advice and counsel. I love calling her for no reason when I have absolutely nothing to talk about so we talk about silly things like food, or my kid jumping on the couch and she won't stop so what do I do?, and our newest craft project.
I try to be like her when parenting my children. Well, a combo of her, my aunt Kimmy, and my gramma all rolled into one. She's always kind but firm to my sassy Miss A so I try to be the same. Doesn't always work but I try.
I love hanging out with her because she's a lot of fun and good company. Whenever we get together we like to go shopping, even if for nothing in particular, because she has good taste. Even if our taste don't mesh I still appreciate hers because it's good and she usually gives me an idea for myself.
I. Love. Her. because she's awesome. And she is more than we could have ever hoped for in a momma.

Him.
It's, unfortunately, non-exsistent. He doesn't want one and made it so after Bryan and I got married. He's made it very clear too. It's sad. I've never known what it's like to have a daddy. Never been able to crawl onto his lap in comfort as a child. Never got to have the relationship that others got to have. I have no idea what it's like. So, sadly, the relationship's not there. I pray for him because otherwise it hurts too much to not to. I pray that one day he'll come around. That one day he'll realize all he has done. And that one day he'll try to make things right.
One day.

2/30 Things: Fears

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2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.


First:
I am scared terrified of moths. Even just thinking about this is giving me the heebie jeebies.
When I was in college in Norfolk, we would get these h u g e moths in our dorm room and they'd always fly at our heads. I was freaked that they'd get stuck in my hair or something. I always had to try to catch them under a cup and then I'd hairspray them to death. Super freaky.
I don't mind butterflies and I think that's because they don't fly quickly and straight at my head. They also don't have have huge freaky furry bodies. Yuck.
*shudder*

Second:
I panic at the thought of losing one of my children.
*says prayer now*
I had to watch my grandparents lose my uncle when he was only 17. They hurt for so many years. Praise the Lord he knew Christ and we know we'll see him again. That gives us hope. But still. I now understand how my heart is now my children. I am momma bear when it comes to them. I would fight and even die to keep them safe and protected.
After I had A, my hormones were running wild. I would cry over the idea of not being able to keep her safe every moment of every day. So this went on for about a week and a half for about an hour every night about 5. Well, Bryan was listening to David Crowder's Remedy album and this one song came on. It gave me a peace and hope that it was all going to be okay. And from then on I didn't cry every night at 5 on the dot. God is in control. Praise Him for that because otherwise I might still be crying each night in fear!!

Third:
I fear my hubby will grown tired of me and leave. I watched my father leave my momma and all the reprocutions it had on our family. It was severly painful. For everyone. I have a very good hubby, who's sweet and good to me. He knows this fear and he fights against it. I'm very blessed to have him in my life. Doesn't mean that fear is easily going away but I'm fighting against it too. It's amazing how one person's choice can affect so many people for years to come.

1/30 Things: 20 Random Tidbits

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1. List 20 random facts about yourself.

1. I've recently discovered that my pinkies are unusually short.  This doesn't mean much except when I wear gloves.  I always thought it was normal for the pinkies to be a bit long on the gloves but it's not! I'm just a weirdo with weird pinkies.
2. A while ago now, my bff and I decided to start running.  But the thing is that I've dreamt about running.  Literally.  I would literally have dreams that I'd be running.  Around the block in different neighborhoods mostly but I'd be running! And well!  So I guess you could say this is a dream come true.. ha!
3. (This next one may be TMI, just warning ya) When I go to the bathroom I have a habit of looking at my nails.  I don't know why.  Maybe to see if I need to trim them.  Hangnails.  I don't know, but I do it every time.
4. I love Jesus.  And I will tell you that I love Jesus if you ask.  And although I can see why people who don't have Jesus see some of the things we do as funny, I'll still do them.  Like when I feel like God is calling me to do something.  They don't understand as we can't expect them to understand but we can love them anyway!  Isn't that what we're called to do??
5. I've only ever had two bff's (for the long run) in my life.  Jeannie and Emily.  I have had short term best friends (and I still love them dearly!) like my college peeps Jonathan, Daniel, Raj, Brittney, and Michael.
6. I'm really quick with math.  My paternal g-pa taught me how to do math quickly in my head that my smarty-pants hubby (love you!!) has to question it because I do it too quick. 
7. I can't sing a cappella because I always change keys!
8. I'm becoming a hippie and I'm loving it!  My hubby is a little weirded out (sometimes) but he loves me anyway because I still shower.  
9. Bryan and I met three times before it finally stuck.  The third time I thought he was weird because he wouldn't stop talking to me!!  But I'm glad he didn't.  
10. Bryan and I also only dated for three months before we knew we wanted to get married but we did a promise ring for another 5 months so we didn't freak our families out.  I was only 19 when he gave me my promise ring for my birthday!
11. I love quoting movies!  Bryan, my sister Courtney, and I will do this all the time and then say "Movie??" The other person/people get bonus points if they name the movie.  Ridicule if they don't and they should have!
12. Having babies has chilled me out.  I've become way more relaxed, go with the flow, chilled kind of person since having kids.  And I sure do love me my babies!
13. I loathe loose hair lying about.  Especially wet loose hair. It grosses me out.  It can even whig me out, give me the heebie jeebies.  So gross.  *shudder*
14. Bryan and I went to Ecuador last year but if feels like 10.  I loved those kids and I would love to visit them again.  (V got to go with us in utero!)
15. I'm a worry-wart but not as much as I used to be.  I used to have a form of OCD with a hint of germaphobia.  I couldn't leave my drink out of my sight, no one could touch or even breathe on my food or silverware, I was afraid of contracting some disease if I touched clothes or items that I didn't know who they belonged to like those from goodwill.
16. I have a tattoo on my hip.  Two hearts.  I want another one.  I want to have a sparrow.  I've wanted one before everyone had them.  When I was pregnant with A I would constantly worry (see #15) about the baby inside of me.  Since I couldn't see her I worried about how she was doing, how she was developing, if she was really a she or if she was a he and the ultrasound just missed it.  So I focused on the verses in Matthew 6:25-27  “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?"  So, I want to get a sparrow to remind me that God is always watching out for me, for my children.  ..She turned out perfect, btw ;)
17. I went to college initially to study sign language for Deaf Missions.  After struggling with the (hearing) people I worked with as well as my self and my own attitude, I gave it up, deciding it's not what I loved.  I did two years of it but didn't graduate.  I did eventually returned to school for arts.  I took classes in photography, pottery, painting, and art history.  I L-O-V-E-D it.  And I graduated at 5 months pregnant with A.  (She got to walk with me in utero!)
18. I love shoes.  Love them.  Probably because they always fit no matter how I'm feeling that day!
19. Our house in now on the market and I am now realizing that I really do like my house.  It has it's flaws but it's our first home and where both of my babies have been growing up thus far.  It'll be sad to sell it.
20. I never had to really use deodorant until after I had V.  Now I have to be SURE I use it!  Crazy body hormone madness. The stinkiness! haha

30 things

I saw this list on pinterest a few weeks ago and thought it would be fun to try.  One thing for each post. I think you're suppose to do this all in one month, one blog post every day for 30 days but we'll see how I do.  Y'all know taking care of babies isn't for the faint of heart.  That and I don't have my own computer so I have to steal my hubby's every now and again and we all know that that is a challenge of it's own.

1. List 20 random facts about yourself
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrassing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
14. Describe 5 strengths you have.
15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.
24. Describe the family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What is your love language?
29. What do you think people misunderstand most about you?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.